Irracional

I had it right in front of me.
Maybe I could have taken it, maybe I could have gone for it and taken a risk... but I didn't.
Not because I didn't want to, I think I did. Or at least it made sense to me that I'd want to.
But I didn't.
It'd be good for me. Maybe even great! She's amazing, right what the freakin' doctor ordered, no bullshit involved, plain and simple having fun.
But I didn't go for it.
Because even in the midst of all the noise, of the rampant dancing and purest enjoyment of the moment, I couldn't stop thinking that I'd trade it all for a second of your smile.
How the fuck did I get here?...